Hi, it’s April 1st. I just sat down in front of my laptop to prepare this email for tomorrow and I have a confession to make. I don’t have a clear idea what this letter should be about. I think it’s the first time since I started this newsletter that this has happened.
I went for a walk this morning, listened to music, walked by a stream of water, with the intention to get some ideas for this letter. I got one, but I don’t know if it’s any good. And I have absolutely no idea what photos to put with it.
I thought I could write about how I became a professional creative. Not in any kind of spiritual and complicated way, but just the step by step practical things I did on the way. I thought this might be helpful for you as a reader possibly. But it’s not really something I have thought much about myself lately and so to write a whole essay about it before tomorrow feels a bit ambitious. Will I be able to do it any justice?
The truth is that I have been in a feverish creative bubble for most of March. I have been writing essays for the book “A diary of an ending”. And I have typed all of my handwritten diary from around that time on my laptop. I have also had a lot of headaches. Probably because I am not used to sitting in front of a laptop and typing this much. Or it could be the strong spring light returning. Or the potent message I am working with (a breakup). These headaches have made the writing feel more urgent because I have been forced to take breaks I did not want to take. Other things have been put on hold. Such as this newsletter. Emails. Socialising. I have really really enjoyed this. (Minus the headaches.) Being in this bubble and exploring new grounds has felt invigorating and life affirming. I have felt truly blessed that this is my life, that I can wake up and do something I love. That I can expand and explore and that it is my job to do so.
I think that’s where the idea to write about how I got here came from. That maybe it could help someone else on a similar path.